Piece by piece you reveal yourself. Face down in the ground, clinging at the cliff, reaching out for something. Seems like you’re lost and troubled. So I immediately look out for you and hold you tight feeling the emptiness in your heart. I wonder what happened so I listen to your stories of heartaches. And as you recover, I feel the pain that’s strangling you and I’m here standing in front of you, wanting you to stop already. Let go and be happy again. Smile and go travel again.
It was a good day to travel. Our family hopped in the bus immediately and put our baggage on the compartment above our seats. Some personal belongings like wallet and phones weren’t separated from us. And the bus started to go without me even noticing as I was still on my feet but then I immediately sat down.
At some point the bus needed to do stopovers and so we stopped by in good place to have some snacks and buy some pasalubong for our loved ones back in our hometown. When I was wondering the corridors of the marketplace, I noticed a friend. And she was just wondering or more like waiting for a ride to her destination. She’s alone. And so I approached her and say hi. She got distracted by that which left me wondering why.
My mom also went in the marketplace while my dad and siblings stayed in the bus. And I found myself also doing the same thing that my friend was. Just standing there staring at the bus and it suddenly accelerated which made me panicked as it had no plans on stopping even if their passengers were still not on board. So I told mom what happened and she said that we will wait for a new ride.
As we wait for a new ride, I introduced to mom who’s my friend and she suddenly acted weird. I don’t know. She must’ve hiding something so I accompanied her around. I got lost suddenly and she’s out of sight so I used my cellphone to call her but then I noticed that she had already called me and when I put it into my ears, I heard her saying random stuff but I felt like she’s having a hard time and she’s not herself. She was saying a lot of stuff and it felt like she’s trembling which was a sign that something was wrong.
So I listened carefully to the noises that I heard in the call and noticed that there’s a hint of water. I now then wonder through the corridors again and found two men surrounding a girl, which was my friend, facing the water with her face down almost touching the surface of the water stream. I then whispered to the guys that we should make my friend stand, so we hurriedly pull her up which made her cry and cry and so on.
I lifted her up and despite that she’s still crying. So I carry her around, hug her and feel her. I was just there hugging her and letting her just cry her heart out. Just to let out all the possible heartaches that she’s been carrying around and there I was embracing her and accepting the fact that sometimes she really feel alone and no one to talk with.
It was like me. I saw myself in her. That she’s just like me but I’m more terrible. I faked my emotions that I show to people and made them believe that everything is always alright but in reality it isn’t. So there I was, also crying with her but with no sound just tears flowing in our faces.
After the whole scene, we now had a new ride en route to the city. So we sat with each other and hugged each other sometimes when sleeping. While my mom was just there on the other side looking to us. And we just enjoyed the ride home.
It was a good and happy ending but then I woke up.
the first time your eyes beam
i got hold of it
everything is a first time
for our eyes locked at a glance
your hair seems so smooth
i’d like to run my fingers through it
and your skin as soft as a cotton
though we haven’t touch each other yet
your smile i’m eager to see
would you even let me
after all, we’re just a few blocks apart
do you even notice that
i believe you’re a wonderful person, yes?
and the universe always allow that
that’s how thoughtful we are
to someone who deserves to be loved
my letter is about to end
hope you had fun reading it
hope you even try
after all, you made me faint
that doesn’t make any sense, yes?
but when i think of you..